They say hurt people hurt people, but it’s serious when you begin to hurt yourself.
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So sick of everybody telling me what to do, when to do it. Not many know how it feels to wake up in the morning and know that you have an incurable disease that will never leave your side. Not many have to think about not being able to start a family, or doing simple things such as getting a tattoo or eating ice cream. These things wont affect the “normal” person. Who the fuck made it okay for my pancreas to just stop working? Why are there research funds making millions of dollars to find a
“cure” when they probably don’t even know where to begin in the first place. Every thing you see regarding diabetes always has this little word… HOPE. Is there really hope that they will find the cure? Or is it a hint that you should just HOPE that this thing doesn’t kill you?
What do you do when everyone has given up on you? What can you say to make the pain go away? What do you do to save yourself from falling into pieces. How to do you mend the ones that have already broken? Why do i question is life is worth living? Am i really sick? or do I ask the same questions as others? When will my life, pain, heartache be understood? Is it worth understanding? will I just remain a broken soul, lost, trying to find her way in life… wondering when the pain will let its deadly grasp go…. wondering what my purpose is… is it pain? Will I ever be loved truly by the people who I need it from the most? or will they hate me for what I’ve done… despite the apologetic feeling of my heart, my soul, my mind… should i just let all of these things go.. I’m breaking… broken… these words will remain unspoken… just let them linger in my head… until I’m dead… remaining nothing but a mistake…how did i cause so much heartache… what have I done? How many times can you question is your life really worth living without falling into the pits of despair, Have I already fallen?
What can you do when you feel like there’s nothing here for you?
When you feel like everything goes from “perfect” to horrible in blink of an eye…
When it looks like the only escape is the ultimate escape?
When things get that bad that you know in fact they’ll never get better?
How many tears can one person cry? Because I’ve cried enough for every soul in this world…
When will i be set free? Free from all this pain that I’ve endured?
Where can I run? Just hide for all eternity?
Because I can’t take this anymore… somebody save me… please.